i ask because i went into anaphylactic shock twice in my life and was approaching it again today. all 3 times i panicked and got very scared.
so... are you afraid to die?
You also got food allergies? I have a lethal allergy to milk and peanuts.
It happened to me four times. First time I was a little kid, around six or so. I was scared because of what was happening to me physically, the throat closing up and feeling the life drain out of you and all that shit. I didn't have any deep thoughts. Second time I was around ten, it was the first time I realized that I could die and the shock of the thought of that came afterwards. Third time wasn't as bad as the others but I took the adrenalin shot and that wired me up to the max so I couldn't think straight, but there was panic going on in there.
Fourth time it was a really close call. I was nineteen and I'll never forget it. I drank something that had peanut oil in it at a party and I didn't have my adrenalin shot with me. I was passing out and my friends called 911 but they wouldn't show up because they thought it was a bunch of drunk guys on the phone. My friends dragged me outside and I could barely walk at this point. Luckily a cab drove through the street and we stopped it and the cab rushed me and my friends to the first aid. By the time we got there, I was barely conscious, I was drooling and I even pissed myself a little, but they hooked me up to an IV just in time and saved me.
I remember that I didn't panic and I definitely came pretty close to actually dying there. I was really calm and sort of had peace with the thought that it was all gonna be over soon, because I knew there was nothing I could do about it. The only emotion I really felt was that I was sad. I felt sad for my friends and family that they were gonna have to go on without me. I also felt sad that I wanted to accomplish more in life, but couldn't.
But yeah, in the end it all ended well. I'm thankful for these experiences now. They have helped me understand better what's really important and what isn't. I don't get angry or sad about a lot of things other people go crazy about. I also think I appreciate a lot of things more than the average person.