Why I Stormed Out Of Your Apartment
I miss you..
The last time we met, you told me you love me. But I havent had that courage to tell you that I love you just yet. I fear that it will become a mistake to tell you how i feel that soon. Deep down inside, you must know that the feeling is developing.
I haven't heard from you since then. It has been three days since the last time we met and you didn't even tried to contact me. So, today... I contacted you simply because I don't believe that a guy should always make the move. I was happy that you picked up the phone even though deep down, I was angry at you because you didn't contact me.
You immediately asked me to come by to your house. I could tell (or least, I thought) you missed me, too.
I swung by to your place.. I brought some DVDs so we can watch it together. I had few expectations in my mind of your reaction when you see me. I might see your smile (the one that I have always loved about you).. and I figured you might wanted to kiss me when u saw me..
Boy, was I so wrong..
When I arrived, you just sat on the sofa watching the tv...
You kissed me a few bits and you lied back down.
You didnt care enough to look good for me. You didnt even shower and your behaviour was totally unacceptable.
I am telling you this because I took an extra effort to look good for you. I wore that perfume you like because I like you, but now I know you don't fell the same.
As I sat down in your hall, all these things began lingering in my mind...
"who am i?"
"what am i?"
"what am i doing here?"
"why did you want me to come here?"
"do i mean anything to you?"
And I saw you began focusing on the tv and not me, until I sighed and said "Im bored to death".
You got up and sat next to me, and began kissing my neck... and as expected, you began grabbing my boobs. What the fuck had got into you? You ignored me for the past 45 minutes and made me feel like crap and then, you got up with that smelly shirt of yours and began grabbing my boobs? I was just lucky that you didn't smell like beer.
I didnt care for you. I wanted to see how far would you go to notice that I was not alright that day.
It came to my surprise that you noticed that something was wrong with me... It even suprised me more that upon learning that I was all stressed out, you got back focusing what was on tv.
I smiled, that was all that I could do. I stared at you with this 10, 000 hidden meanings of smile and you smiled back at me, knowing that this smile was not meant for you.
It was 3 hours later, i realized, you are not worth my time. Yes, I was a fucking idiot.. but then again, I waited because you were watching my DVD. I wanted the DVD back. So, I asked you a question, just so you could stop the player and keep the DVD back in its case.
I stormed out your door after that and you didn't even stop me... I left your house feeling like my heart is swollen from the most agonizing pain ever.
Now, you and your man-clueless-mind might be thinking why the fuck that I stormed out like that...
1) Unlike men, women don't really like thier genatalia being touch when they are angry. That'll only work when they are horny.
2) When you don't even care to look good for the girl you said "i love you" to, that will get the girl wonders if this is what it's going to be when the relationship got steady?
3) When you notice that I was angry, and you do nothing about it, well, screw you and your selfish ass... If i don't mean that much to you to make me ok.. then storming out your door, would affect you as much..
And yes, it hurts me that you didnt even stop me but I'd rather be hurt now, than later, when I actually have fallen in love with you...
I am sorry, that I was being so rude...but I had no choice. I needed to get out from your house. I am not your slut!!
If my presence does not effect you as much, then my absence won't be much different.
Yes... that's how it goes.. Si polan!! Screw you.. You're an ass who'll never make big money like she will... Tetibe emo.. Ye lah!! Harus.. Girlfrens stick together, what..