Curious how a female rapes another female Woman who was raped by a female student in college tells how her mom's own account of surviving sexual assault gave her the strength to overcome the traumatic attack A college student has told how she overcame the horrific trauma of being raped by another woman during spring break. Alaina Leary, 23, a postgraduate student from Boston, says she was sexually assaulted by a female student during a party in a friend's dormitory when she was 18. Writing about the experience in Cosmopolitan, she explained that for months she 'repressed' her ordeal but later found the courage to speak out and write about it - inspired by her late mother who was also raped. http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/3397E1FA00000578-3561789-image-m-43_1461779996594.jpg +6 Survivor: Alaina Leary, 23, pictured, has told how she rebuilt her life after she was raped by a female student when she was 18 http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/33964F3F00000578-3561789-image-m-45_1461780038265.jpg +6 Attacked: The postgraduate student, pictured, from Boston was visiting a friend at her college during spring break when she says she was raped by another woman http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/18/3396631F00000578-3561789-image-a-42_1461779967871.jpg Brave: Inspired by her late mother, pictured with Alaina, the postgraduate student found the courage to speak out about her experience through writing The editor and social media director, who is studying publishing and writing at Emerson College, said the life-changing assault took place during her first spring break while visiting a friend she had not seen for years at another college. She said she was not drinking herself but there were 'bottles of alcohol and mixers everywhere' as the party overflowed into nearby dorm rooms. Although she did not have 'a ton in common' with the strangers, she said everyone seemed 'kind and friendly'. But between 10 and 11pm, she said her 'vision began to blur' and she started to feel 'super-drunk and half-asleep' despite having consumed no alcohol. 'My vision began to blur, and my thoughts stopped making sense. I would be thinking something, and then my mind would drop off mid-thought, and I would forget exactly where I was and how I'd gotten there,' she wrote in her article about the experience. 'I remember feeling somewhat like I was super-drunk and half-asleep, even though I'd had no alcohol. I also remember being in a small bathroom down the hall from the dorm room with no idea how I got there, just staring in the mirror.' She then recounts being taken into another room where she said she was assaulted. http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/33964F4700000578-3561789-image-a-49_1461780155920.jpg +6 Traumatic: She said she started feeling 'super-drunk and half-asleep' and was led into a room by a fellow female student where she was raped http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/33964F4D00000578-3561789-image-m-51_1461780179593.jpg +6 Determined: Alaina said she 'knew that I had to speak up about what happened to me' 'Later, I was led into an empty dorm room by one of the female party-goers, where she raped me,' wrote Alaina. Afterwards, Alaina, who now lives with her girlfriend in the Boston area, said she did not share her story and 'tried to pretend it was a dream'. When she was a teenager, Alaina said she thought rape 'was the worst thing anyone could survive'. She said she would hear her mother, who died before her daughter's assault, crying. I knew that I had to speak up about what happened to me, even though it hadn't worked for my mom She wrote: 'Some close relatives and friends hadn't believed her when she revealed what had happened, so she had had to live with the trauma alone, writing letters in her journal to people who would never read them.' After her mother's death, Alaina found her journals which she said included a number of letters to her sister about how she felt. Her mother's inability to share her story is what helped inspire her to speak out. She wrote: 'How desperate she was to connect with someone who believed her. She felt misunderstood and trapped; she never got to heal. 'I knew that I had to speak up about what happened to me, even though it hadn't worked for my mom.' But when she went to report the assault to the campus police at the college she said she was asked a series of 'unnecessary questions' about her clothes, whether she had been drinking and her sexual orientation and told that they could not help. She was told that because she was not a student of the college, there were no witness or 'physical evidence' it would be difficult to 'prove' her assault. http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/3396632700000578-3561789-image-m-53_1461780219369.jpg +6 Love: Alaina, pictured as a young child with her late mother, tried to report the attack but was not met with a positive response http://i.***************/i/pix/2016/04/27/19/33964F3700000578-3561789-image-m-54_1461780278469.jpg +6 Voice: She found a support group which helped her talk about her experiences and she has since found the strength to write about them 'I imagined what my mother must have felt - not having someone to really reach out to,' she wrote. She moved colleges, changed majors, gave up her lifelong passion, writing, and said she had 'just about given up on finding a way to deal with the trauma'. Then she came across a support group where she told her story and started going to regular sessions out of which she found the courage to write about her assault. The following semester, she changed her major back to writing and wrote a poem about being a survivor of sexual assault. My mom died before I was raped, but I think if she were still here, she would listen to my words and not feel so broken She following year she read a 'fictionalized memoir' about being a survivor aloud to her class and was met by compliments from people who had survived similar experiences. Although she said it is 'difficult work' to write about her traumatic experience, she said it also makes her 'feel stronger and freer'. She said when she writes she thinks about watching her mother from the stairs as she wrote in her notebook. 'She died before I was raped, but I sometimes think if she were still here, she would listen to me read my words and not feel so broken,' she wrote. 'That we might share our stories and become survivors together.' For six months, Alaina thought she would not be able to write again following her assault - but she has since taken 'control of my narrative' and found that writing has actually helped her to move past the horror of that night - and overcome the feeling of powerlessness that followed.