Another Ex-Scientologist Writes A Scathing Essay About Why She Left The Church "Scientologists have no boundaries and their cruelties exclude no one." Actress Carmen Llywelyn spent eight years immersed in the Church of Scientology. Since leaving, she penned an essay for Gawker entitled "Why I Left Scientology," that details her troubling history with the religion. "The reality of Scientology is deceptively hidden and cleverly disguised. When I look at Scientology today, I have to forgive myself for not seeing through the manipulation sooner," she writes. "It hasn't been easy, but I've realized that the religion is built on a foundation of violence." Carmen's ex-husband, actor Jason Lee (My Name is Earl, anyone?) introduced her to the church. When Carmen, 41, first set foot in the church's Celebrity Centre, at the age of 20, she describes getting a "horrible feeling," but she pursued the religion to save her marriage. "When I think back, I believe a part of me knew if I didn't accept Scientology the marriage would be over before it even started. Regardless of how different I feel about Jason and Scientology today, I was very much in love with the guy and wanted our marriage to work. I did what I thought was right. But I made the mistake of immersing myself completely in his world. I did what so many other people who join Scientology do: I lost all sense of individual identity in the name of the cult." "As we kept going, it occurred to me how unreal and expensive Scientology was going to be," she said, adding that she realized that membership would cost her upwards of $50,000. "To me, Scientology seemed more of a surreal lifestyle for the privileged than a kind of belief system." However, she wouldn't dare express her feelings. "You'd never think that speaking your mind could get you in that much trouble, but if you knew what the average Scientologist's perspective was on friendships you'd understand," she writes. "In Scientology, your friend can become your worst enemy overnight." In her essay, she describes the awful sensation when her closest confidantes (including actress Jenna Elfman) turned on her after she was deemed a "Suppressive Person," or "the worst thing you can be in Scientology. Even her former husband sent her a "disconnection letter." Carmen goes onto claim that "Scientology has a sophisticated intelligence agency known as the Office of Special Affairs, which is essentially a complex system dedicated to ruining the lives of those it sees as enemies in any way possible." She says that members of the Church "skirt the law and use methods like electronic surveillance and cell phones to monitor a person's every word and every move." It's not the first time we've heard this allegation. Tom Cruise purportedly bugged Nicole Kidman's phone while they were married and it's been said that he did the same to Katie Holmes. When she finally left, Carmen said her world basically shattered. "Nothing that I knew was ever the same. I lost every friend and source of love I knew besides my family in Georgia, 3,000 miles away. I was completely on my own and not one of them cared. What I didn't expect to happen was that Gay [a Scientologist] would get my agent at United Talent Agency to drop me. Or at least that's what she told me in her disconnection letter I received. So I had no way of even getting work. I was supposed to start over." Carmen, who now lives in Atlanta with her partner and twins, says that she is speaking out now to help "other survivors who have suffered through the experiences of predatory cults," adding, "Scientologists have no boundaries and their cruelties exclude no one." You can read the full essay here. The Church of Scientology has not yet responded to our request for comment.