For some reason, I am sick to my stomach about going this weekend. I'm actually VERY shy in my head, but I always say fuck it and don't act like it. Back when I used to dabble in standup, I would be physically ill in the hours leading up to a show. Meeting me you'd never guess in a million years I was shy. Just thinking about it now, my face is hot and I have a knot in my stomach. Then again, if I don't go I'll be kicking myself in the ass and beating myself up for being such a pussy.