It's 4:30am here in Australia, and I just woke up from a really bad dream. I dreamt about my older sister, and it made me really sad to the point that I almost cried. I remember as a kid my room was always really messy and full of junk, but her room was full of art books from school, pictures of friends, collages, thoughts etc... I mean her room was full of things she had made. It made me sad to think about all the creativity and work she had put into making her room really cool, and now she was moving out... I thought a lot about how much I used to make fun of her and be mean to her, that I never really got to know her that swell. We would always just argue. That's why seeing her room made me sad. She moved out years ago, and we're on good terms now of course, but in the dream I just had I was back in her room, looking at all her cool stuff I've also been having a lot of anxiety in general on this trip that I'm on. I feel that I'm so ugly that I'm not even.human, and it makes me not want to go out. I'm constantly obsessing over how ugly and bad I look. Anyways...just a little update from my Australia trip.