Crazy bitch is in the paper everyday, but still keeps turning up alive. Nobody has been looking for her for 20 years. And who keeps fucking her and giving her all these kids? Sinead O'Connor took to Facebook to rant about her struggles, particularly with her ex-husband and son The Irish-born singer took to Facebook on Monday night admitting that she suffered from "suicidal compulsion" and accused her family of abandoning her for wanting to kill herself. "YOU LEFT ME TO DIE," she wrote. O'Connor went out on a bicycle ride on Sunday morning in a Chicago suburb and did not return, leading someone to call authorities to report her missing. She was later found in a hotel after a day-long search by authorities to check on her well-being. Just prior to the "Nothing Compares 2 U" singer going missing, she directed a Facebook status at her eldest son Jake Reynolds, 28 — whose father is O'Connor's ex-husband and music producer, John Reynolds. She requested that Jake go to court to take custody of her son, Shane, who she has been involved in a longtime custody battle over with musician Donal Lunny in Tulsa. Monday's open letter posted by O'Connor slammed the men in her life including Jake, John and her own father. "Every one of you had better pray I die," she wrote. "Because I'm suing the f---ing lot of you for what you've done to me if I manage to live through it." She also accused her ex-husband of forcing women to have abortions and that he and her father dropped her off at the hospital in hopes of carrying out the same thing when she was pregnant with her first child. "If you and my father had got what you pushed for, Jake wouldn't even f---ing be alive," O'Connor claimed. “None of you will ever see me again because of what you've done,” the post continued. “If I manage not to kill myself, you'll be paying the medical costs which have been and will continue to be involved with that.” The singer even made digs that her father was responsible for killing her mother. It’s nothing new for O’Connor to document her troubles on the social media site. In November, she posted another harrowing message. "There is only so much any woman can be expected to bear," she wrote. "What was done to me this week was appalling cruelty." "The last two nights finished me off. I have taken an overdose. There is no other way to get respect. I am not at home, I'm at a hotel, somewhere in Ireland, under another name." Arsenio Hall can 'suck my d--k,' Sinead O'Connor says about suit Additional posts have been made addressed to her children and addressed the constant custody battles. O’Connor is the mother to four children ranging in age from 28 to 10 and they each have a different father.