I can't sleep

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  1. garypagetwo

    garypagetwo Dream Theater's Bitch Gold

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    I'm just lying in bed feeling really anxious.. Sometimes it happens with me, that I see others having lots of success, and it drives me crazy, because I feel there must be something wrong with me that I cant think of something creative and unique to become successful like them.
    Like today I watched some shaycarl videos on youtube, just out of interest, because he was showing his house and stuff, and like...i remember years ago i fucking hated him and his dumb fucking vlogs, and his retarded family and wife who tries way too hard, and he whores his kids out for views...
    But he has a video where he announces that Maker Studios, the youtube network he cofounded, was sold to Disney for almost $1billion, and like... I want to experience that :( He went from being a broke retard to endlessly rich and successful in just 4 years...

    And I know, very very very few people make it big like that, but it's something that's always interested me. Since I was 11 I got into music and dreamt of becoming a successful musician, then a few years later I started getting interested in entrepreneurship and my brain went into overdrive as I tried to think of a business idea...

    When I was 16, I managed to raise ~$2000 from friends, because I thought I could make the next ebaumsworld. The money was lost after the designer and coder I hired basically ran off with the money. A couple of years later, I was pitching a wild and retarded virtual reality idea I had to huge IT companies, guys in suits, etc, and I even managed to snag a paid trip to London to meet some potential investors. But I barely prepared and the whole thing was smoke and mirrors.

    But since I was 14, Ive been enamored with the idea of making something successful...with music, film, business...
    It's in my DNA. But at the same time, winning is not. It's a horrible combination of desperately wanting to become successful, and procrastinating and just not being creative enough.
    Sometimes ,like tonight, it feels like a disease because I cant escape the thought that Im a failure, and "everyone" else is finding success so "easily".
     
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  3. Swedish John

    Swedish John I'm your huckleberry

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    Drink some juicen Gare. :p
     
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    so go out to downtown Oslo and make a few bucks.
     
  5. garypagetwo

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    PQ.gif~original.gif
     
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    garypagetwo Dream Theater's Bitch Gold

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    what motivated you to keep pushing forward and gaining weight? When doctors told you you couldnt get over 500 lbs, how did you muster up the will power to just keep eating and eating and eating and not exercising or anything?? and when you finally reached 900lbs, was it as euphoric as you had hoped?
     
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    Shay Carl's wife is hot as fuck.
     
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    Haven't you claimed to run an IT management firm in the past that was making you a lot of money? Basically you watched server consoles or some basic shit like that.
     
  10. blotchy

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    Don't worry, your leather bracelet will soon start selling in the millions. I can not wait for your jewelry line!
     
  11. garypagetwo

    garypagetwo Dream Theater's Bitch Gold

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    no shes not. Shes one of those average looking girls who cake on makeup and try way too hard to look hot all the time
     
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    no?
    im not making a jewelry line.
     
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    who cares faggot
     
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    Go see a fucking therapist and quit bothering us with this bullshit all the time.
     
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    Holy shit!:words:
     
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    He signed off :jj:.