Ive been up for 30+ hours....its just this endless cycle of self sabotage that I cant fucking get over. My entire life ive been my own worst enemy and im so fucking sick of it. I know I could have gotten an A on this exam if I had just put some fucking effort into studying this semester, and that just makes it so much worse. I cant re-do the exam, so I have to take what I get... I guess I just need to move forward now, and try to make up for it next semester and balance out the d's/e's with a's and b's... we'll see. I need to calm my mind down somehow now, before my parents start calling me asking how it went today.