Getting back in to doing drugs and I have drank every single night now for the past month. Since I have had my car I have been pretty reckless I went out with this one douche bag and I assumed it was a date and we ended up doing coke all night and karaoke at a gay bar and ended up at some bathhouse where I thought he wanted to cuddle but he just wanted his dick sucked.every night I come home drunk and I sleep for two hours get back up and dont fall back asleep till 10 am . Also look how fucking fat I got am Im fucking disgusting. Money wise Im doing pretty well you can almost say Im rich bitch. Job is great besides working every day and My dog is doing well Im able to afford medical for him now but Im worried If I don't change my self destructive shit soon im going to lose everything. Anyone have any advice on what I could do to get back on track? I plan on taking a long long walk today in the metroparks with some pumpkin spice cappuccino to think about things and was going to try some meditation today. I'm really worried about my temper at work and staying in control and I the stop drinking thing wont be that hard to do but I already popped off on another coworker and I went kind of maniac Mario on him and the drinking does calm me down at the end of the shift when I start doing when I become dead tired and want to kill everyone. . Im feeling like shaving my head today too and going crazy Brittany but her new song says work bitch so maybe ill just get my hair styled or somethng.