I'm back to being self destructive again. Need advice on breaking bad patterns.

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  1. Super Mario

    Super Mario Well-Known Member

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    Getting back in to doing drugs and I have drank every single night now for the past month. Since I have had my car I have been pretty reckless I went out with this one douche bag and I assumed it was a date and we ended up doing coke all night and karaoke at a gay bar and ended up at some bathhouse where I thought he wanted to cuddle but he just wanted his dick sucked.every night I come home drunk and I sleep for two hours get back up and dont fall back asleep till 10 am . Also look how fucking fat I got am Im fucking disgusting.

    Money wise Im doing pretty well you can almost say Im rich bitch. Job is great besides working every day and My dog is doing well Im able to afford medical for him now but Im worried If I don't change my self destructive shit soon im going to lose everything.

    Anyone have any advice on what I could do to get back on track? I plan on taking a long long walk today in the metroparks with some pumpkin spice cappuccino to think about things and was going to try some meditation today. I'm really worried about my temper at work and staying in control and I the stop drinking thing wont be that hard to do but I already popped off on another coworker and I went kind of maniac Mario on him and the drinking does calm me down at the end of the shift when I start doing when I become dead tired and want to kill everyone. .

    Im feeling like shaving my head today too and going crazy Brittany but her new song says work bitch so maybe ill just get my hair styled or somethng.

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  2. BleedingGums

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    Tl;dr
     
  3. Vyb

    Vyb serial chiller Gold

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    tl; dr
     
  4. Super Mario

    Super Mario Well-Known Member

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    nice to see the creative original posters here hitting it out of the ball park as usual.
     
  5. Super Mario

    Super Mario Well-Known Member

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    are there any smart people awake right now??
     
  6. Bro

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    The first step is admitting you have a problem.

    Your anger issues might be because you're over tired from not sleeping.
     
  7. mattyfishrip197

    mattyfishrip197 Well-Known Member

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    doing coke...and getting laid

    sign me up
     
  8. Vyb

    Vyb serial chiller Gold

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    Fak. Ninja'd. And then I read it anyway.

    I thought you had a srs boyfriend and everything was cool. Did you break up and you're sad and that's why you are on the self-destructive path?
     
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    mattyfishrip197 Well-Known Member

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    you might have something on the lack of sleep thing...

    maybe he could go to an aa meeting.......maybe try that out
     
  10. Gomez

    Gomez Well-Known Member

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    Hi Mario.. how things?
     
  11. zhukov

    zhukov Time traveler VIP

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    stop drinking and doing drugs

    problem solved
     
  12. Phil McKrakin

    Phil McKrakin AKA Howie POTY The Bar VIP

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    Hi Mario. I love you. BTW? tl;dr
     
  13. Lawsy

    Lawsy Hey, buttholes

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    It sounds retarded but yoga helps balance you. See if your gym offers a body flow class.
    Start working out again. You're too goodlooking to be a heifer. :nono:

    good luck, mario.
     
  14. Reggae Mistress

    Reggae Mistress Old Catcher's Mitt

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    Good morning Mario. It sounds like you are self medicating with booze and drugs. Something is going on with you. In the past, you weren't "happy" because of the job/money situation. Now it seems like you've got that angle covered and you still aren't "happy". Self destructive behavior is often a sign of depression. Depression's best friend is anxiety. Sounds like you might have a little of both.
    :console:
     
  15. Super Mario

    Super Mario Well-Known Member

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    that guy was never serious. He was kind of opieish and we had sex and never talked again :jj:
     
  16. nazdrowie

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    keep doin' your thing, Mario..live every day like it's your last
     
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    I wonder if mario drinks at work.
     
  18. Bro

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    Naz Style.
     
  19. Lawsy

    Lawsy Hey, buttholes

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    such sage advice. :coffee:
     
  20. Super Mario

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    were not allowed to drink up there. that does not mean I have bottles of absolute in my car for the end of the shift. Its really hard work and it calms me down when im cleaning up at the end up the night.