we were walking our dogs and she was telling me about the artichokes and pot she was growing. She stammered and called her daughters name twice. And then she died right in front of me. I'm beside myself right now. She was only 72. I can't fucking believe it. She's dead. I didn't know cpr but she had a problem and couldn't get it anyways. I couldn't help. I'm fucking useless. I'm so goddamn upset. Her daughter says she forgives me. Well i don't forgive myself. What a useless piece of shit i am. I should have known cpr. We were just talking about pot brownies. Goddamn it. I'm absolutely destroyed. I've known this woman for years. This is all my fault. I didn't know what to do...as usual. Goddamn it Fuck you mutt, why couldn't it have been you.