Im going to take a sick day tomorrow to try to gather my thoughts. I think the underlying issue is that im starting to get worried that i wont get in to the uni I applied for. I find out the 20th, and my job ends in 2 weeks, but I just cant fucking take it anymore. Literally every second im there I sit and freak out about what's happening in my life. I cant concentrate or think, and ive stopped eating lunch with the others at work. So basically I show up and just sit there like a zombie for 8 hours. My only freedom is when I go to the toilet and just stand there in a stall and listen to music for like 20min at a time. Also earlier this week i fucked up my chances with the hottest cougar milf i was talking to on the dating site who said she wanted to meet me, but i think i was too eager and scared her off with too many messages.