Well shedders...I'm 10 months into my marriage and not feeling so great about it anymore My husband is fat ...which is really bothering me lately Also..I leant him 12 grand that I really didn't have for his new motor and he's been a little lax on paying me back ...half of that money I put on my credit card, btw...which also upped my monthly budget I actually have to remind him for some money the last couple of months and he acts like I'm being a nag And to top it off..he was recently talking about all the other stuff he wants to do to his car which costs money and I was like .what about paying me back some of my money first...and he laughed and told me..I was waiting for that He doesn't French kiss me...EVER. And foreplay involves him just laying there with his cock out. Sometimes..I'll be like....wanna fool around and he'll make excuses..the biggest one being that he just pooped So take a shower! I'm 42 and don't want kids. I'm kicking myself for pushing for marriage. What was I thinking??? Please send me some positive vibes...that these feelings will pass I really have Noone..no friends or family to vent to...and maybe it's because I'm just a majorly unlike able bitch and I'm being unreasonable about my husband??