I am so ridiculously fed up with my first thought most mornings being doom and gloom. The first thing that came to my mind today when I woke up is how I was going to run up to the store. Then, a few minutes later that anxiety creeps in and says ‘it is raining outside’ and you are better off just staying inside until it clears up a bit. Who gives a shit if it is raining? Why do I even have this thought? One of these thought in themselves is a nuisance but to have them constantly bombard your psyche day and night gets extremely tiring. No, I'm not suicidal. I'm just venting.