Please don't make a mockery of this. I've been getting shakes and inner tremors for over a month now. I can't even stand with my eyes closed. If I lie in bed, it feels as if I'm in a free fall some nights. Scariest thing I have ever felt in my life. I actually started drinking again to calm the anxiety(I know, bad). My team doctor from my former AHL team who I called seems to think it's anxiety but I'm stressed out(some here know my background). I have to go for a CAT scan and MRI this week. It scares the SHIT out of me what they might find because there is one person who depends on me in life. I can't falter or wilter away with her. I keep hiding my tremors away from her. All I can think of is ALS of MS. Christ, I keep coming here for laughs and the laughs are awesome but nothing seems to calm the anxiety or the body problems. Why are you writing this LaserTilt? No one wants to hear your BS. (I agree ha) Because I'm looking to get busted on and and get extreme laughs. Might take away the anxiety or the problems. I think this might be the last time I will lace up(Its getting that bad). My sister and her friends went to a rink for a b-day party yesterday and she made me lace up and skate with them(after I said I wouldn't haha). I had horrible inner balance, but I hid it well from her. I posted this pic on my Facebook. These are the skates I get??? All my years of playing my ass off and playing in MSG for a game and I have to skate in these??(I say that to make me laugh. If it comes off wrong, I apologize). Only for her would I put these on. I don't know. I'm scared as FUCK!!! I don't usually curse on here. But I am scared shitless. I know my body and I know something is wrong. I would never use up a thread on Dawgs for some bullshit, but I need laughs. Send it to the "hoochie bin" if need be. Sorry guys.