It's all I think about. I try not to stare and obsess but I've reached the point of no return where I'm in too deep. When I talk to her (which is frequently because we work together in the same area), this is all my brain processes: Everything else is in slow motion. Anything anyone says sounds like Charlie Brown's teachers. Then something happened the other day that I wasn't prepared for. Let me take a step back and explain. This girl is young, hot, blonde, in pretty good shape otherwise, except for her huge fat ass. Something very close to this: Here's the deal... she's been slowly (but steadily) gaining weight and 100% of it is going to her ass. The more weight she gains, the more turned on I am. So the other day I walk into our breakroom at our office (I live in California) and she's sitting there at lunch eating a giant cheeseburger and a huge order of fries from Carl's Jr. Even more food than in this pic, all spread out: So not only is she not dieting, she's totally stuffing her face with the exact opposite of the type of food she should be eating... and she's doing it work in front of everyone. It took every once of strength I had to not go into the men's room and masturbate right there. It was a different story once I got home as you can imagine. I'm not sure what to do next. This isn't healthy.